Your heart is very open
Have you done Sufi whirling? i feel a strong karmic connection. Radio V are interested in my journey, my disciplines and practices and what i do in the studio. Colon cleanse. Gurdjieff movements. Teaching Pilates. i love to see you. i want to see you. Sorry, i don’t watch 18 movies. i don’t want that kind of imagery going into my consciousness. Come to mine. Text me when you arrive. Or knock very quietly. To me you’re really pretty. i’d like to see you in black silk and lace. You look like an angel in your underwear. Is light slapping ok? Can i pull your hair? You don’t like choking? Some people do. Baby you feel so good. When i look at you i want to…can i come on your face? Does it hurt a lot? Don’t worry. It won’t take much longer.
I have to give you maximum points for this
I could’ve looked for a chemist’s in Finsbury Park before getting on the bus but punctuality’s my thing. After three months of nothing, I didn’t expect more than a few light spots. Scrunched up loo roll. An hour later you fetched a towel but we were moving around too much. I’d seen my other friend earlier on. He’d been in too much of a rush so I was half way there already. You didn’t mind that you looked as though you’d been eating lipstick and even though your flatmates were around I didn’t hold back. Next morning, an old scouring pad did a decent job on the mattress. You didn’t flinch, even when your favourite white T got smeared.
I’m fine I think
It’s ok darling
I only feel slightly sick
don’t worry about me
it was sort of alright
lying down together
I wasn’t trying too hard
to work out how long
since our last time in bed
and then taking our jeans off
when our mouths met
I realised how much I’d missed
your fluids
but when you squeezed
inside my bra
touching me so close
to my heart
. and then you had to get up
to play tennis
you said
you didn’t want to pursue it
but you hadn’t touched a woman
for six weeks
(the trouble with long distance)
I do wish you well
with her I do
desire
your happiness of course
most spotlessly
only a mild reflux
of regret
I did like kissing you
wet and pink
like an internal organ
I didn’t want it to stop
I wish it hadn’t started
when your text arrives
I’ll be waiting